Do you ever stop and look around and think to yourself look at me now! Every now and then I catch myself doing that and I have to say I am loving life right now. To think about where I was and where I am now it’s like night and day.
Growing up I was the fat kid. I was the kid in school who always got made fun of. I remember when I moved in with my dad and step-mother she would take me to the doctor and ask the doctor what was wrong with me and what can she do to get me to lose weight. The doctor would always tell her “Nikki will do it when she is ready.” The doctor was right. Fast forward to 2005 I was 280 pounds which was the largest I ever was. I had enough. I got my head on straight and took matters into my own hands. Now I am 15o pounds -or at least I was prior to getting pregnant and I will be after Little Miss is born mark my words!- and I couldn’t be happier.
I also look at where I have been relationship wise. I have been through the ringer. I don’t want to dwell on this subject but I honestly think that my previous relationships have helped shape me into who I am now in my relationship with Mr. Big Truck. I could not be happier with where I am with Mr. Big Truck and for that I am very thankful.
Then I look at my work situation. I work full-time in the shipping industry. I am a longshoremen by day. What’s a longshoremen? The best way I can explain it is by saying I am in import and export of container cargo. I have been at my job for 10 years now and while I do not love it, I can not complain because it pays the bills and allows me to live a comfortable life. I also am a group fitness instructor. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would be able to say I teach group fitness. I have to say I LOVE it. Now that I am pregnant I have taken a back seat to teaching. I will be back at it as soon as I can. I miss it so much. I also have my own business with AdvoCare. I can not even begin to tell you how life changing this has been for me. I have helped myself get healthier and I have also helped others get healthier. Not only have I helped myself and others get healthier, I have also helped so many people earn an extra income on a part-time effort and that is awesome!
Friendships are so much more solid now then when I was younger. I credit that to life and experience. When I was younger friendships were friendships I did not think twice about them. Now a days I choose who I want to be around. I make sure that the people I surround myself and my family with are people who are going to impact us in a positive way. I want people around my family and myself who will lift us up and who will not pass judgement on us. I want people who are going to encourage us and that we can encourage. When I was younger I was mixed up with the wrong crowd. Thankfully I was able to get my act together and go out of it before anything terrible happened.
Ya know, it’s crazy sometime I will see something that someone else has and I will think I want that. That something can be anything from an article of clothing, a purse, a handy kitchen contraption, a shiny new laptop, a new car, the latest and greatest of anything for that matter. Then I stop and realize, no I am totally 100% content with where I am. I wish everyone could be happy where they are and stop comparing what they have or don’t have for that matter to what others have. Be happy.
One thing I do and will always continue to do is work on myself. Personal growth is one of the most important things you can do for yourself. Take some time everyday and do something that will improve yourself. Something that will help you help others and add value to your own life and those around you. It is something I have started doing and I love who I am becoming because of that small practice. Do you want to see a positive change in your life? You need to do some serious soul-searching and personal growth to accomplish that. Positive changes do not just come to us they are something we have to work for. I personally think it is something worth working for.
Life is about to drastically change for Mr. Big Truck and myself. While we are excited and ready we are scared and nervous. In a good way. We do not know what exactly our life will look like come June but we are ready to face it head on and together. Sleep is going to be nearly non-existent. Chaos is going to be the new norm. We are going to embrace it but we want to be as prepared as possible for it. We know you are never 100% ready to bring home a baby and ya know what? We are more than okay with that. We know we have been through a lot individually and together and we know we can take on this next chapter in our life.
So my challenge to you friends is to take a look at your life and think about it. Stop comparing yourself to others and accept responsibility for your own actions and take whatever steps you need to get yourself to a happy place if you are not there. Remember it is your life and no one elses.