Here we are two days before #babybigtruck turns one and I can not belive we have made it an entire year. It really is amazing. I sit here and think about how much #babybigtruck has changed in the past year. How much Mr. Big Truck and myself have changed in the past year. How much life itself has changed in the past year. Ya know what? I would not change it for anything. It has been hands down one of the most amazing years of my life.
#babybigtruck has taught me so much in the past year. She has taught me what it is to love someone unconditionally. The moment I met my little girl and got to hold her for the first time I was so so content. I knew I had finally reached a point in my life that I was doing what I was supposed to be doing.
She has taught me to really put someone else before myself. I mean I thought I did that before but man was I wrong. She has taught me that no matter what there is something to smile about. She has taught me that even when you think are you are tired you find a way to get things done.
I have learned that I have to follow my gut. No one knows #babybigtruck the way I do and only I will really know when something is not right with her. From January till just recently we have been dealing with breathing issues and we finally got some answers. Sure it took me some time but I knew something was off and I was not stopping until I figured it out.
She has taught me to let things and people go. She has made me realized that I will not and can not do all the things on my own. She needs me first and foremost. She needs me to make sure that she is taken care of before I worry about something like thank you cards or catching up with a tv show. She has also taught me to weed out the toxic relationships in my life because I do not want that for her.
She has taught me not to judge others. I remember when I was child-less I would see moms out and about and their kids were throwing fits and carrying on and I would think to my self “My kid will NEVER be like that.” While #babybigtruck has yet to thow a full on hissy fit in the middle of the store we have had our times where she was fussy. While being fussy and having a hissy fit are not the same I can only image what it will be like when she is full on carrying on. I do not look forward to the day but I KNOW it is coming.
I have also learned that there are STILL nice people in this world who are willing to help. When I went to FL with #babybigtruck in March, Mr. Big Truck was not able to come with us. Do you know what it is like to travel with a baby alone? It is not the easiest task in th world but it is doable! Going through security I had her in the carrier but I also had the stroller with me. When I had to fold it up and put it in the belt to get scanned there was a nice man behind us in line who helped up pick it up and get it settled. On the other end he helped up reset it up. Then on the plane the people we were sitting next to happily entertained her on the flight. Those people will never be forgotten.
Most importantly she has taught me that I am doing the best that I can for her and our family. I may not be the perfect mom but I am the perfect mom for #babybigtruck and that is all that matters!
Happy ALMOST Birthday baby girl.