Things people say to you as a mom of 1 is funny. Most of the time they are honestly innocent questions, but what a lot of people don’t understand is that sometimes what they think is an innocent question really brings a lot of pain me. It’s not their fault though, they don’t know the struggles of infertility I’m dealing with.
Back in August I had suffered a ectopic pregnancy which lead to having one of my Fallopian tubes being removed. It was traumatic. I went from being on the high of getting the news that I was pregnant and then it all came crashing down when I heard the words “There is no viable pregnancy in your uterus.”
Fast forward to November I had a cyst rupture and had to have emergency surgery again. And then we got the news that I may never get pregnant again. We were told to seriously consider IVF.
As of right now IVF is not an option for us. One it’s crazy expensive. Our doctor told us it would be between 13 and 15 thousand dollars and it isn’t covered by insurance. Two we have an amazing beautiful healthy little girl who is the light of our lives.
I get questions and comments all the time. Do you guys want another baby? When is the next one coming? Are you trying for another? #babybigtruck needs a little brother or sister. #babybigtruck would be such a good big sister. You guys have to have another child you make such pretty babies.
Let me tell you these questions suck. I hate when people ask me these things.
Yes we want a another child but the truth of the matter is we may never have another child and that’s a hard pill for us to swallow. It’s something I know I struggle with almost on a daily basis.
Sometimes I feel like I am failing both Mr. Big Truck and #babybigtruck because I may not be able to get pregnant. Then I stop and think that’s just Satan messing with my head. I know God has a plan for us and I know he would never want me to think those things.
Like I said we want another child but we have all our faith in God and his plan for us. If He wants us to have another child He will bless us with that child. We know He has a plan for us and we have full confidence and faith in His plan for our family. We are both also 100% at peace with the fact that if God has planned for our family to be a family of three then so be it. We have been blessed with #babybigtruck and do not take that fact for granted.
So do yourself a favor and think before you as a mom of 1 if and when they are going to have another child. You may not know what is going on behind closed doors.